Have you ever wanted to kill a man? Just straight up take away his lousy excuse for a life? Or how about punish him for all that he is worth (which is much I assure you)?

Dont you mess with my family. If I were back home I would go straight to the jail cell that you are rotting in and give you more than a piece of my mind! Who do you think you are?! Just an alcoholic nobody. Just a no-good, washed-up, waste-of-the-world's oxygen.

I will try to show forgiveness, but just know it is more than you will ever deserve, you piece of trash. You will never read this, but I hope you can feel this. I hope you can feel the pain you have caused my family, both physically and emotionally, and I hope you can feel the hatred that now courses through my veins. I dont know who else is enraged by this, but you make me sick. I will most definately delete this after I cool down, because I hate this feeling and this will only remind me of it.

And so I ask for forgiveness for what Ive just done, for the murder that I have committed in my own heart. I ask for mercy, that I may feel it like a cool rain upon a heated temperment. I ask that I may show this forgiveness and mercy, although I feel like it may be undeserved. I ask for the realization that because You loved, i will love. Lowercase my pride, lowercase my temper. Hear my requests.

i have about two more weeks here in the LC before im taking off. it is getting hard to think about, leaving i mean, cuz there is just so much stuff that i am going to miss, so many people that i wont get to see as much, and just life wont be the same. im a little afraid of change to be honest,  and this is going to be a huge change.

i am trying to see anyone that might wanna see me before i am gone, so if you are one of those people, let me know. set up a time, cuz i dont know if i will. not because i dont want to, just cuz im pretty busy. so hit me up. if not, i will see everyone in four months or so.

In Christ,
Coop